The Art of Brokenness
By Better Days Global, Nov 26 2017 05:20PM
I secretly lived in bondage to myself. It was me against the world and this is what brokenness can do to your mind if it is not properly ordered. You may be going through brokenness but you’re not defeated. When we face brokenness, we have choices. We may choose to move around the brokenness and not face the pain. Or, we may choose to dwell on the pain and never choose to go through it. Or, we may choose to surrender, to be like the little child who says, "Daddy, pick me up. Carry me. Hold me. I can't, but You can”. We can choose to offer the sacrifice of a broken and contrite heart and let God use it. That choice is a journey toward God for His glory not our healing, but for His Glory! Does that mean God doesn't care about my healing from this horrible illness I experience or that my pain is insignificant in the sight of an awesome God who has more important things to do? No! But God is more interested in me being poured out at His feet, worshipping Him, than in ending the pain. Does God see the loss of my Father as good, so He can teach me higher things? No! Of all people, He knows what it was like to sacrifice His only Son. But He used my pain and transformed it for His Glory. He made me more compassionate; He taught me about grief and loss; He taught me the power of weeping with those who weep and not trying to rescue people from their pain.
In serving, our goal is not ultimately for the broken to be healed of their presenting problem, it is that working through their brokenness will lead them closer to God. The violations to our very beings through abuse, neglect, and love deprivation, have created a breach in our relationship with God the Father. We are called to be repairers of the breach, restorers of homes to dwell in, restorers of a home for God to dwell in, a home where worship, trust, obedience, repentance, and brokenness are permanent fixtures. I learned while sitting many days and nights looking at my ceiling, that God wants us to go beyond the pain of brokenness. I have seen the higher calling of a broken and contrite heart and it is for the healing of the nations. It is so that our purpose would become one with God's purpose to bring all things together in Christ until every knee bows before Him.
The problems in our life are often blessings in disguise. We must learn to view them from this Spiritual point of view. The greater the burden placed upon us, the greater the faith required to “hang-in-there”. It takes faith to continue living for God when things turn for the worse in our lives. As an example, new muscles in the human body are built (strengthened) by exercising the existing muscle to the point of exhaustion. Likewise, the exercising of our faith (the trial of it) will make us more mature and stable in the Lord if we will be patient and not give up. Sometimes we fall down, but the righteous man who falleth seven times rises up again (Proverbs 24:16). I don't know of one Christian who is invincible but growing and dwelling in His peace has made me feel that way. Even when I fall I have identified that the key is to always get back up off the ground, brush the dust off, and do what I can to get back on track for God. Pray and ask God to help you.
The Bible taught me that the trials and tribulations in my life are more valuable than gold. In fact, the Bible literally says MUCH MORE PRECIOUS THAN GOLD... “much more”. 1 Peter 1:7 “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ”. What an amazing truth. It was once hard for me to view my bodily affliction as being much more precious than gold, but that's exactly what I have grown to accept and that revelation deposited so much peace into my walk. Most of which I overcame stemmed from being positioned to make a choice. It is the decisions that we make on a daily basis that define our lives. A man is not defined by what he is, but by what he does. Most people love compliments and just like how I was seeking approval from the world and those within it, I became a servant of those whom I tried to please.
Years of searching and searching for love, peace, joy and acceptance, and it was always present. God met me in the center of my pain, and using the power and truth of His Word, He taught me who I am in Jesus and who He is. In His character, I found the perspective and possibility I needed to learn to live with my pain and to use it for His glory, blessing others and growing my faith. After living with the brokenness of my past, a breakdown, a reluctant suicide attempt, bullying and abuse, I tried many things. Despite reading books, drugs, money, good job, friends, girlfriends, life-coaching a supportive home and Church family, it wasn't until I began the study of God's Word that I understood my identity in Christ. I learned what God has to say about who I am and who He is; in that, I grew to accept my pain as part of the process and shaping. I then saw the art of brokenness.
This is not how your story ends;